I listened and marveled how she could make lemonade out of lemons. If you didn't think she had enough on her plate, she also does crafts and teaches classes and has people over all the time and cooks and entertains with the best. She is a marvel and I enjoy just being around her. It did give me pause for thought though as the next day when I was getting my hair done, there was a women that just had her hair done and nothing was right, she recombed her hair after it was done, and continued to have negative comments the entire time she was paying the bill. So what makes the difference in those two people? Did one chose to be negative and down all the time and the other one just made a choice to be positive? Are you born that way, does the influence of family and friends change anything and can you make it different? Can you chose to be healthy? Now hold on, I am not saying anyone asks for cancer but do you ever wonder what one person deals with and where you are in your life and what has transpired during your lifetime? Why, what, where, how, and who?
I have changed in my life so many times but my basic values remain unchanged. My outward appearance has changed, not just hair color or length or my size and shape but a conglomerate of things. This is not the body I came into the world with.
I did not chose cancer, it is just a word and not a sentence. I did chose to be a wife, a mother, a nurse. I did chose to be silly, spontaneous, funny, caring and compassionate. If I can be remembered for that, I will be happy. What about that negative person? Does she realize how unhappy she sounds and how what she is doing is impacting her life? I love the positiveness of my other friend and her whole outlook but I can never be that hyperspeed always(although my sister will tell you otherwise). I treasure downtime and and a evening with absolutely nothing scheduled. I also love people around but not all the time. I love family coming together and our picnics, and gatherings and being family. I try to maintain being positive but I do have moments that doubt and insecurity sneak in. So what is normal and what do we generate in our own lives? Well, first I do believe we all have varying levels of dysfunction, no one is immune. How we handle our dysfunction and diversity makes us what we are today. For today, I am happy, content, and looking forward to seeing my son home for a weekend and enjoying my life for where and what I am right now. I guess what I am most thoughtful of is that you have to be happy with who you are and what you are and where you are at this very moment as it is always changing and although we want to change many things, there are somethings that just happen and we must deal with it.... and make it a great day! S