Now post treatment and 7 years out, I look to each checkup with hope and optimism and yet a little fear. My mantra is and will continue to be, Dear God, please make it be alright, please make it be alright, please make it be alright. My husband's mantra has since day one of our life together and has always been, Don't anticipate problems thqat might not happen! (Hence, Men are from Mars and women are from Venus- haha). I have also learned to not be meek ( and yes I can be meek when scared and there is unknown) Speak up and ask questions. I have to avoid the What if and look at what is. I do speak up for myself as I know that I need to be my own best advocate. I need more, I need better answers, please explain that again as I don't get it completely.
Take time for yourself and when you need rest take it! I have a lovely book club of women I love and admire but this week, I was stretched in too many directions and was just totally out of steam to the point that my ears even hurt, which is a sure outcome of being exhausted. I called it quits and stayed in. I did not go anywhere or do anything and crashed and burned early. I need the downtime to get back in the saddle the next day.
No one can calm your inner fear any better than yourself. You need to take control and talk to yourself, be gentle and firm and know this is just one day, tomorrow will come and you will be your best. Do I have this down 100%, no, no, no! I am learning and improving each day and I laugh alot. That is my way of facing the beast and gaining control over the situation. I don't mean to be funny but I find life is funny and things, people, circumstances, all different aspects of life can give you a boost if you take the time to notice. So next time you starting flapping around like a fish out of water take a moment to regroup and calm your inner spirit and get that new breath of air to get you back your best for the day, Know that I extend my love and prayers to all and that we will make it a great day! S