I actually got some comments recently and it is great to hear from someone on the other end. Today, I regress though. I have hit a little blip on my radar screen and am going through some tests and have nothing to tell you at this time. My optimistic scale is up though and I am predicting smooth sailing soon. With this little bump, as you can all guess I am in and out of the office and still trying to stay the course with all my commitments and in fact keep filling the schedule if I can. I am best when I am out helping others and trying to catch me is like trying to hold a tornado tail until I crash and burn, and well I do just that. I was in bed at 7 and didn't stir much till 6 this am. According to my normal sleep pattern I should now be good till June. Actually I was watching the deer going through my back yard last night and a rabbit outside my window and looking at the two story playhouse in the back yard that used to be filled with kids, a volleyball net, a trampoline that has now been taken away and zip line that everyone loved. I hear the laughters and the silliness and some nights we would even have a small fire and cook marshmellows and listen to the animal life in our back yard ( which is in fact- in the City limits). I have seen bear numerous times, heard coyote, seen skunk, raccoon, possum, ruffled grouse, turkey, and of course my precious deer that I love to watch. I have sat on a picnic table and had them within 6 feet of me. My dogs don't even bark when they are there. When I look at nature and the rebirth and regrowth, I know that all will be right with my world as that is the only place I can be involved in or have an impact. I can only make it better in my surroundings. Now that does not mean limited to the road I live on or just friends and family but all that I do and places I come in contact with. I watch world news occasionaly as it is so sad to see what we are doing to ourselves and each other. I pray alot and hope that if I do something good here it will be like a ripple in the river and will move on down the line and pass on to others and they in turn do the same. Today, I can only handle what I can for this day and I will do my best. This isn't about cancer, but about life and what I am facing and how I am facing it. FULL SPEED ahead with a smile and laughter. Anyone that knows me, knows that is my key mechanism for survival, then chocolate and sleep( of course faith and family are at the top of that list as well.) Don't panic or worry, I will handle that part of this if needed but for now I am just trying to think of a funny joke for the meeting I will be directing in 30 short minutes. This will be a great day and I will get back to CA i
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AuthorMy name is Sue Kilburn and I am a clinical nurse breast cancer educator at the Yolanda G. Barco Oncology Institute in Meadville, Pennsylvania. Archives
March 2015
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