The cost of having dealt with cancer can be long lingering and that sits in the back of your mind always. You wonder if you would ever decide to stop pursuing treatment if that circumstance ever rises. As we have reminded over an over, our priorities change but as time passes we realize that we have a tendency to fall back to old patterns but I hope that you can steer your boat back into the stream. You realize it is not important what other people think of you and that you can only do your best whatever that is at the time.
I no longer apologize for needing a time out and will take me time when I need it. I have learned my limits. I did talk to a patient just the other day that was going through treatment that stated that she was just so tired of it all and that she would never go through that again. I remember saying those same words at one time as well but, now that I am back on my feet, I am not sure what my decisions for the future will be but know that I will take my time and think about it all and what and where, when, how, and who will be thoroughly discussed.
You know that you can't take it with you, money or things. I am in the cleaning out mode and less is better. Simplicity sounds my now routine in life. I don't worry so much about calories but I do want to stay healthy. Just maybe the healing isn't exactly just in the body as much as it is in the mind and with that I wish you a great day! S