As always, my opinions,my input and no reflection of any institution .
This has been a busy week( aren't they all)! I finally had to admit I had nothing left and stopped and got dinner to take home and got home, pj's, dinner and then one show on tv and to bed. My daughter called to wish me a HAPPY ANNIVERSARY. I was a bit dumbfounded as knew that it was not my anniversary but didn't want her to feel silly so I thanked her. I guess she could tell by my tone, I had no idea where she was going with it but I learned very shortly thereafter. "MOM, this is your anniversary, 6 years ago today you were diagnosed with breast cancer," she said. I hesitated and then laughed- always my go to response. It hit me, 6 years and I am still here. Six years and I am laughing and working and teaching and breathing and alive. I have learned that somethings I process by filing them away, like my divorce years ago but I hadn't realized that I had filed this away so neatly. I knew that it was in March and I was in my early 50's but never did I think I would forget that date. I did forget and quite properly I might add. I had to take a few moments and reflect, all good but nevertheless-I had to think about it. I did and everything came floating back and all those other memories related to what I had to go through and how I got to where I am today. Some of my bad habits remain but I do make an effort in many areas to do and be better. Exercise comes and goes, diet is mostly good, sleep is and has been awful for years and my stress remains at an elevated level but I do have massage and try to laugh more and fret less- that is why I prefaced this with TRY. I also have learned that when I say stop, I have to stop -it is my body saying enough. I don't feel quite as guilty about it as I used to though. So as I near the anniversary of my marriage to a wonderful man , my anniversary of my birth which will hit the big 60 and the anniversary of my job, I know can add the date of my new life, my new normal, my future and if I forget, I have a daugther that will remind me how lucky I am to be alive and what a tough ole bird I am in the long run. Made it a great day! Sue k
As always, my opinions,my input and no reflection of any institution .
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AuthorMy name is Sue Kilburn and I am a clinical nurse breast cancer educator at the Yolanda G. Barco Oncology Institute in Meadville, Pennsylvania. Archives
March 2015
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