I sure remember those days. I hear that so very often and like any traumatic issue that we face, it takes time and patience with yourself and others to not be totally consumed by those thoughts. It is amazing to me that so many approach me and will tell me horror stories of their sister or friend or acquaintance. People talk to talk and don't often think about the ramifications or the sensitivity of the issue. There were days that every waking and often sleeping moment was encompassed by the thoughts of the cancer but not today. Do those thoughts leak through, sometimes but each day, and each year, less and less. NO, I have not become complacent but just accepting of what it is. I had cancer I am through treatment and I will continue to do what is best for me or at least attempt it. Weight, inactivity, high fat and processed foods, alcohol, avoiding smoke... are all part of my new mantra of things I need to be aware of. I continue to do my mammograms and self breast checks and routine physicals. I want the best outcome for me and try to set an example for others. What treatment I did five years ago, has changed and is different today. We are evolving rapidly and the advances being made are amazing. There are some days I have to shake myself and redirect and go on but I am only human and we are hardest on ourselves and less tolerant of our own inner thoughts and actions. So be gentle and live your life-each day. PS don't forget to add a dash of humor....
S