I have come to the day that I have decided I either need a huge garage sale of a big dumpster as it is time to simplify life. I don't want or need stuff, I much prefer friends and family around and simplicity. Is it my age? Maybe, or is it I have my priorities in line and stuff doesn't fill the holes that love and friendship and companionship do? You decide, I know I am nearing the big "60" and I want to really celebrate. My dad always thought he would die young and he did, at 69 from lung cancer but not as young as he thought he would. I don't have any preconceived notion of my timeline but do insist on the importance of enjoying every moment of every day. Sometimes I push beyond it just to get it all in and that includes work or play. I often wonder what I would do if given a distinct time line of -maybe you have 6 months or something on that line and what I would do different. Would I eat the last cookie in the bag or all the bag, would I go crazy wild and do things I would never have dreamed of or would I go back to just the basics and spend the time I had with those I live without all the appointments and have to's that we all get committed with? I would like to think, I would clear out all the stuff and enjoy.
I often miss my brother, although we do talk, as he is always so busy taking care of the his house and grounds and too busy to come over and his invite (to come see him) although open is just for anytime but I need and want a date and time as to drive to Cleveland and not know if they are home or we are interrupting them from their long list of work chores is not what I had in mind. I need him to take some time and just be, with me, us -the family. He never does state a specific date or time and always ends with come over. I ask him to come with dates and times and he still doesn't come. I miss him and he is here, still here on earth. My sister lives in town and is always on the go and can never be found and you really have to schedule two weeks out to get her. My schedule vacillates so that it makes it difficult to get together. I work full time, she is retired. How do we get so far away from those we care about? Kids, well they are all over the country and the closest son, makes every effort to get together as much as possible and we try to get to them depending on their time and commitment and other family commitments on his wife's side. I love to have them home so I can show off my grandchildren and enjoy them in my house as those are the memories I hold dearest. I love going to their house but I can do Grandma things in my house with my things. The rest are too far away for a short trip home but soon will come Grandma Camp and all will arrive and the bedlam is fun, exciting, and just bone-tiring but I love it.
So, I guess what I want most is a simple, fun-filled, family oriented life with opportunitites to laugh and share. When my time comes as it does for all of us, I want to have a smile on my face and family at my side and hope that I have helped others and made a positive difference on being here on earth. The cumbersome things, I have to let go and the pain and heartache as well. We all have pasts with difficulties, trials and situations. I choose to smile and make it a great day!. So with that, I hope you all had some fun and enjoyed family and friends and will also make it a great day!