What a great time with family and friends! I enjoyed the time but it was crazy.... Got people in and out better than we hoped and even got a sleigh ride in although there was minimum snow, it still was great fun. Woke up this morning to a drive full of snow. Pop went out and snow blowed so I could get out of the drive and just as I was coming to the end of the drive, you guessed it... the snow plough came through and we had to do a little readjusting. I made it to work although it took me over a half hour which is double what it normally takes. There have been cancellations and rescheduling and I must admit, I don't blame anyone. This is not the day to be out testing your driving skills. Winter has hit with a vengence but what can we expect? We live in Northwest Pennsylvania. This will certainly take care of my daffodils as they were up about an inch and the deer have been rumaging in our back yard since yesterday and all night as well. Ron even had to plough a path for the dogs so they could do their business. All the while, my daughter in Florida is taunting us with the fact she was heading to the pool.(I seriously doubt it but she liked to rub it in.) I hope the holiday was everything you hoped it would be and more and now we are back to dealing with the issues at hand. It is time to support those that are supporting others and caring for those that need our help. This was never out of mind but temporarily we were all preoccupied with the moment of the season. Our tree is down and lights are down from outside and now it is just getting through the winter as best we can. Having said all that and all the positive things...how are you doing? Are you angry and have you ever expressed your anger to your higher power? Trust me, it is ok to do so.. we are human and your higher power can take it. I guess I learned growing up that in my faith it was more often heard that you fear your higher power( I am using "higher power" so as to include everyone's beliefs). No one really has all the answers and those that profess they do are just guessing. We are all seeking peace and acceptance. It is hard to understand that we have free will but yet we have been given special gifts and if that can happen, why then can't we get rid of illnesses, wars, poverty and the like? I don't understand nor do I have the answers but I continue to seek out answers and listen and pray. I can't say I have ever been mad or angry at my higher power but I have had doubts. Would I be cast out or even destroyed if I verbalized my doubts or anger? I don't understand that anymore than how the world started or what all has happened through time but I continue to have faith and know that I need that in my life. Without faith, I am lost, I am human and I need that presence in my life. Sometimes it is just good to sit and listen, even if it is quiet. I have felt love and acceptance in some of the worse times of my life and that is what keeps me going. It may not be in my timing but I will continue to be open, listen, and pray. This I do regardless. I have conquered many obstacles and some have even beat me but on this new year... I hope you have faith and will be recharged by those that care and are around you. Make it a great day! S
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AuthorMy name is Sue Kilburn and I am a clinical nurse breast cancer educator at the Yolanda G. Barco Oncology Institute in Meadville, Pennsylvania. Archives
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