Trust me, I do not have a hard shell. More than one occasion I have had to take a moment a regroup and I have cried with families and for them them. I have stood in lines to give my condolences, I have cooked and taken food, and held hands on off hours or gone the extra mile to meet needs to help these patients and families through this all. No, I am not looking for a gold star. I am telling you that we are more than a healthcare team but looking at it from the patient side(since I am one) I am more than what you see as my thoughts and dreams and hopes are still intact despite my diagnosis. What will the outcomes be for me or anyone, I have no clue as I am not the writer of the big picture but I know that we all have to put one step in front of the other and face this with all the hopes and fears, love and carrying, optimism and compassion as this is a team that are meeting the illness head on. I hope you can hold your head up but on those days you can't, I will be there to support you and in turn if my future holds some other outcomes, I pray that you will be there to hold my head up as well.
In the meantime....make it a great day for all! S