No, I don't mean keep a breast, I mean keep informed, learn, listen, read, discuss and research. Today is yet another day for a new beginning with new hope and new options and ideas. Positive, Positive, Positive! Not easy to do but something we all have to work at. we must and will stay positive and get through the day, the moment, this time and look for the brighter tomorrow. Care, love, and listen and be still and listen. What a mantra that is and of course my all time favorite, LAUGH- alot and often. Some may think that I am not serious and that is far from the truth. You are deep within my heart and mind as I look to ways and means to help. My fall back is to laugh and make you laugh. I think I could get on stage and dance the opening like Ellen Degeneres and I would love to meet and greet new people and find out what they are all about. Too many times we are just too superficial and our casual becomes the norm. I know that I could hibernate and isolate when the world is crashing down around me but yet I still need you there despite my evasiveness and quiet. I am nearing a milestone, yes- 60 years coming fast now. It is just a number but I see with that number that I am slowing down and stress more ( although I am aware of it and working to direct all that. This is what, the twilight years? I am a boomer and know that there are more medicines I take to keep me going and that there are things I can and cannot eat like I used to. I think the funniest thing is that Ron and I can go out and actually split a dinner. Really, when did that happen? I know I need to make the most bang for my buck. I eat little more of this and a whole lot less of that. Little things mean alot. I wanted a big celebration and now I don't know as not sure how many would actually show up for a 60 birthday party and I really don't eat much cake anymore and I can only do one drink and then I want a nap. I am sure by 9 that the partiers would be already heading home. I would love to have all my family around but also know that is a pipe dream just like meeting Tom Selleck. News today is depressing, what can we do to make changes, big changes and where do we go from here. I am thankful I am not 40 years ago, trying to start a life and career. I am not where I thought I would be but also glad of where I am. We may big plans and then by the time it is to go to do it, we are more content to stay home and put on pj's and watch Dancing With The Stars and live vicariously through them. I am not sure if I would end up more like Kristy Alley with good steps and lousey body or Cloris Leachman with not a lousey body for her age but so wrong on so many levels. So when I say keep abreast, know what is going on but pick and choose, You have earned the right. My bucket list has been accomplished many times over, so what do I want to be now that I am grown up. ... easy- loved, appreciated, included, and needed. Not sure how that goes on the list but there it is. Striving to make it a good day! S
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AuthorMy name is Sue Kilburn and I am a clinical nurse breast cancer educator at the Yolanda G. Barco Oncology Institute in Meadville, Pennsylvania. Archives
March 2015
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